Sex Used to End Before I Was Satisfied

Finally, it’s over.

The old me often thought that, quietly, after sex.

I always went along with my partner and put up with things I didn’t like. If I held back my own pleasure and matched him, he’d be satisfied. That’s what I believed, so I sacrificed myself and pretended to feel good.

It always ended when he came. I spent my days never feeling fulfilled.

It’s not that it didn’t hurt. I did wonder why I had to force myself. But I told myself that’s just how it is, and made up reasons for it. The idea that I could be fulfilled too never even crossed my mind.

Then I met my current boyfriend. We had been talking about our kinks since before we started dating, and orgasm control (deciding together the days he gets to come) was something we had agreed on from the very beginning. And that’s when I learned how good it is to have him hold back.

Because he held back for me, I came from penetration for the first time. It was a feeling I’d never had. I was so happy. After sex, being able to touch him while he was still hard made me happy too. If it had ended with him coming, that time would never have existed.

It doesn’t have to end when he comes. When he holds back, I get to feel good, and he gets to feel good for so much longer. He tells me, “It’s hard not being able to come, but being this turned on makes me happy.” That was when I learned there’s a way for both of us to be fulfilled, instead of it being one-way.

I’m glad I found something this happy, and the way I face sex changed all at once. Meeting orgasm control changed my life.

If there’s a girl out there who, like the old me, thinks “this is just how it is” and feels “finally, it’s over,” I want to tell her this.

Don’t put up with too much. There is a way for both of you to be fulfilled, and it doesn’t have to be the one where only you hold back.

Just knowing that made my days this happy.